ouch.

ouch..

did u loose ur sensitivity chip or something.

some things just hit the very core of u and u cant explain it. no matter how hard u try n figure out wat is was about that sentence that struck a nerve, it just doesn't come to you... n ur left feeling hurt.

and no amount of 'making it up' takes effect.

a latent period starts and u just feel numb.

its something only a good shower and some chocolate ice cream can cure.

mayb im moody...
but it hurt just the same.

p/s : sorry for this emo post. but if it helps me feel better... its all that matters ryte guys??

i feel better already.

;)

has anyone ever stopped to ponder on the little things in life?

like sleep??

owh wat pure bliss... to lay in nothing-ness, ur mind empty with an occasional sweet dream or two, breathing steady, just laying there motionless as u recharge urself for another day of 3rd year.

waking up.. i find.. is almost the most hardest thing. especially after a meager 4 hours of it. BOOHOO!

sleep o sleep~~~~~ where art thou??

actually 3rd year isnt all that bad. It only is when u procrastinate like i do and find urself upon heaps n heaps of overdue material that u wonder where all the time went.

1. Stop with the farm-cafe-fishtank whatchamacallit games on FB! they're addictive!

Full grown men find themselves planting oats and wheat and taking care of their little chicks and pigs and visiting other little farmers, raking leaves, fertilizing crops and so on so forth... happily!

2. DO NOT study with ur lappie on... Lappie on means internet's on.. which means MSN is on... which MEANS..... that u have a 99.9% possibility of meddling with ur com halfway tru reading Microbiology and the next day all that you can recall are the lyrics to ur bestie's "Natalie Louise Shim" 's new song.

btw nat.. i <3>

3. Be sure to have a well-stocked fridge. Studying takes up much glucose for the brain. Hence snacking is a MUST.

Snacking on fatty products is prohibited. We shall be smart AND sexy. Write this down.

4. I wish i had a no 4. Then it would seem like i thoroughly thought this thru.

Anyways~

till my next rant...

tata bloggie~

XOXO

MIA

3rd year's a bitch.

why do they have to cram everything into this particular year... everything medic-y is shoved in ur face right now.

n while i enjoy somewhat knowing every little mechanism that twinks our body... i have to say the load is getting to me.

n its only been 3 months.

exams will be hell.

i think im slowly fading out of existence.....

pray i survive this.

and sorry for being mia lately. but the free time i have.. i spend on cathing up on sleep.

ps : i've agreed to play for mygames netball n basketball tournaments. And im trying out for the futsal team apart from already being in the netball team. Im digging my own grave.

but its just so funnnnn... i cant help myself (T_T)

back in kursk for 3rd year

heya bloggiee

im backkk~~ been here in kursk for more than 3 weeks now..

coz im so lazy.. i'll just post these up..

warning : ss pics galore. ^^

went shopping for my winter jacket in Manesh

went to Manesh's version of fun square

this is Manesh from the insides

recharging batteries for another go

went strolling about town

went smelling preety flowers ^^

went yumcha-ing with friends

wonderful weather = happy2

outsides of Manesh

posed a lot

ate a lot.. n tats about it. we do what we can~

this was whilst still in KL... notice ojoi's excited. we were driving 100km/h on the highway ;p (drivers were very focused of course)

and tada~ tx for picking me up n sending me back to the airport dong mek. *hugs*

so those pics are to replace having to explain wat i did these past few weeks..

the two last pics were whilst still in kl. sorry for the SS pics. but darl got himself a new cam.. n ive become his muse.. ^^

nways its so hectic nowadays... 3rd year is no joke.

i dont know what i must have done wrong in my past life to deserve getting all the "good" teachers this semester.

i shudnt complain. these teachers of mine are strict and unforgiving and expect u to memorise word for word the topic.. then in class they just whip u up down and sideways.. in a way it makes us study.. but still~ the stress and fatigue can get to u.

thank God for these miracles of a day when classes are canceled to make way for a special occasion in kursk. A portrait of Mother Mary which was found here in Kursk 800 years ago has been brought back to its original place from the US... temporarily of course.. and processions will be taking place in the main streets to commemorate this historic event.

procession = main roads closed = no busses to hospital classes = x classes = rest = happy me :D

yipee~ so tats why im taking this opportunity to update on the latest happenings.

so till my next post~~

on attachment

wuhuuuuu bloggie~~~~

sorry for the long absence.

internet is no more fun for me when im so occupied with family n friends. i know wat ur thinking.. "awwwwww"......... but its true.

and since the 1st of August... bz with attachment in HQE, emergency dept.

so many things to tell.. so bloody tired.

oopps.

a little deprived of sleep

not because attachment starts at 8am (tats a reasonable hour), but instead due to the fact tat i have to reluctantly wake up at 5am n leave by 5:30am so tat mum n i can send lil bro to school by 6, then mum goes to work at 7... and im dropped off an HOUR early to the hospital..

during this time i read the newspapers very2 slowly and go through every article.. hence, im pretty upto-date with current events like mj's mum now has custody of his kids (not in any particular way useful info but still... i read the entertainment section first :D)

neway bck to topic

its so so so very interesting in A&E now.

in the beginning... i remember the hours spent standing trying to look bz when there are no cases in the ward, or the time when we first started and felt completely lost in a world where everyone is walking with a purpose and rushing to get something done and of course the leg aches from all that standing.

it took some getting used to.

the key is to be proactive. or in other words "kuat menyibuk"

some have this God-given talent while others have to jadi muka tembok jg la.

"errr.. nurse bole kami observe?"

"errr.. o.. apa skt dia ah?"

etc etc

at first i felt like i was in the way of their efficient workings.. but a few days into it.. i started to get into the groove.

gone is the shyness. in order to learn.. i shall be "proactive"

and the staff (MA,HO,nurses) have accepted our presence.

they even allow us to do more procedures now and we dont even have to ask anymore. they seem to want to teach these eager-to-please med students who trail them everywhere.

ive done several ECG's, BP and Pulse rate recordings and a few injections even (with supervision of course)

might seem like a small achievement to some.. but for me..

*SMILES ALL AROUND*

small baby steps hehe.

however observation wise is amazing.

i know i sound very jakun.......

but i just saw a little boy's head cracked open due to a falling brick that landed on his head and the part tat made me jakun was that the Doctor INVITED us to touch the fractured skull of the boy so that we could learn how it felt like. So 3 of us observing this boy slipped on some sterilized gloves and felt his fractured skull through his large open wound.

fuh. thats wat i call learning.

imma never forget that.

there were so many other cases... but im pooped.

all in all.. first week of elective attachment in HQE Emergency Dept has been fun and very educational.

till my next post~

tataaaa~

In Quarantine

WARNING
IF U DONT WANT TO READ ABOUT ME WHINING N COMPLAINING
LEAVE NOW

arrghhh...

i feel like dying...

not because of this stupid virus.. yes funny story. who wud have thunk tat i wud get the swine flu. i must have the most sh**tiest luck in the world.

dun worry tho. im all well now.. symptom free.

wats killing me is boredom.. house arrest is no fun. so bored.. i suddenly felt like blogging which is a good thing.

sorry guys.. (especially ojoi) for not telling u.. there were days susah mo buka mata coz the fever was too much (pity me pls) ;p

and i dint even contract this virus from so-called h1n1 infested countries.. (i transited in korea.. but none of my friends got it).. so most probably i got it from my brother.. coz he's been hanging out with loads of friends who just came back from overseas, namely US and australia.

and not to mention i sat in a confined space with him(the car) for several hours.. as he coughed on and on. And suddenly i wake up the next morning in cold sweat, all feverish.

to make things worst, i wasnt able to meet azee n zella whom were here for several days after i arrived... n now they've flown back to shah alam.. n im left here all alone again with no hope of meeting my geng karas again... uwa~

sedih gila babi sdh nie.

to top it all off.. nxt year i'll be doing practicals in russia.. so mmg x akan clash lagi holiday kita.

so i'll see ya'll after 4 years ya!

:D im smiling to hide my pain n dissapointment.

ya. they shud put an extra symptom up for bloody swine flu.

DEPRESSION

You've found the ONE

it seems like only yesterday we were on our way to high school together... either ur dad or my dad would pick us up n send us because we live in the same housing area.

we gossiped, we shared our secrets, we laughed, we cried, we stayed over at each others houses.

we worried about our hair, we complimented each others styles (omg. fashion disasters way back then), we assured each other and promised to stay good friends eventhough we led different paths in life

u told me of ur first bf, who apparently will also be ur last :)

ur an animal lover.. and to the extreme. dozens of cats. even dogs. and u even have a shovel in the boot of ur car for "emergency purposes" which i shall not mention here :)

u love to swim, but u cant because ur allergic to chlorine water.

u have really thick, soft, straight n silky hair which i envy. (ok totally irrelevant)

and now u have gotten engaged (6th June) which is such a big thing for me. And u told me a month before about it. it was an invitation. i knew u knew i couldnt be there.. but u told me anyway.

im touched. eventho we dont keep in contact as much as i would like.. but i know we're still the best of friends.

so anyway baybeh~

this post is dedicated to you.

HAPPY ENGAGEMENT!!!

p/s: u've surpassed us all :D

the lip pout pose. lol. from way back when. dammint.. i just realised we dont have a more recent pic.
:D and there's mi other bestie. curi2 masuk pic haha.

neway, i miss u zee.

dont get married without me!!